A Place to Speak Out
Soul Survived is a space to confront the truth about the Soul Survivor scandal. It’s a raw, unflinching look at the betrayal, the cover-ups, and the need for real accountability. No more silence. No more lies.
No More Silence
Soul Survived is a space I have created to confront the betrayal and fallout of the Soul Survivor scandal. This isn’t just another story of failure - it’s a gut-wrenching example of how power, trust, and faith can be twisted and shattered.
Here, I lay bare my thoughts on the lies, the cover-ups, and the systemic failures that enabled such devastation. It’s time to ask the hard questions: How did this happen? Who let it happen? And, most importantly, how can the Church and Christianity as a whole become something real - something that truly reflects the values it claims to stand for?
It’s past time to break the cycle and demand better.
The organisation must acknowledge its role in enabling his behaviour and take concrete steps to support survivors and implement robust safeguarding measures. Ignoring the past only perpetuates the cycle of abuse and erodes the credibility of Christian institutions.
The worship at Soul Survivor Watford that I have witnessed online seems to me to have become nothing more than a well-meaning but ultimately ineffective distraction. The worship sets are rehearsed, polished, and emotionally charged, but it feels like the church is trying to mask its guilt through repetition and theatrics rather than addressing the decades of hurt and trauma caused by the scandal.
There’s a sense that, rather than focusing on the needs of those affected, the worship songs are a way to mask the deafening silence that should be filled with apologies, accountability, and genuine lament. When the church should be facing the consequences of its actions, it instead offers catchy choruses and a veneer of spiritual activity.
They need to investigate, openly and honestly, why so many people failed to act. How did Pilavachi get away with this for so long? Who knew what, and when? And what structures are in place now to ensure nothing like this ever happens again?
Because if they don’t, history will repeat itself. Silence is complicity. And right now, far too many people are still staying silent.
Perhaps the most glaring issue in all of this is the failure to centre the voices of the victims. The report detailed stories of young men who were coerced into massage sessions under the guise of spiritual mentorship. Others were belittled, manipulated, and shamed. The pain these individuals have carried for years cannot be overstated.
Where is the outcry from the leaders who claim to care for the vulnerable? Where is the public acknowledgment of the church’s failure to protect its own? Every moment of silence adds to the burden these victims carry.
The revelations about Pilavachi have left a deep scar on the Soul Survivor movement and the thousands who once looked up to him. For many, the betrayal feels personal, a trusted figure who turned out to be anything but trustworthy.
Yet, amidst the anger and hurt, there is also an opportunity for reflection. How do we prevent this from happening again? How can religious institutions better protect the vulnerable? And how do we reconcile the good that Pilavachi may have done with the harm he caused?
What if, instead of viewing sexuality as a threat, the church saw it as a gift? What if it recognised that love, in all its forms, reflects the divine? The God I believe in is not limited by our narrow prejudices. God is vast, inclusive, and capable of holding the complexities of human identity.
Relying solely on internal mechanisms or reports commissioned by the very institutions under scrutiny is fraught with conflicts of interest. An investigation funded and controlled by the accused party lacks the objectivity required to uncover uncomfortable truths.
In the wake of the scandals surrounding Soul Survivor and its founder Mike Pilavachi, a question has lingered in the air: was it a cult? It’s a loaded question, one that might make some recoil and others nod grimly. But to really grapple with it, we need to unpack what makes something a cult and examine how Soul Survivor measures up.
Matt and Beth Redman’s courage in sharing their story is a vital step, but the work is far from over. The church, and all who seek truth and justice, must keep asking hard questions.
In the end, silence doesn’t absolve guilt, it amplifies it. Let’s ensure those who wield “No comment” as a weapon of evasion face a world that refuses to let them disappear into the quiet.
Mike Pilavachi, once a towering figure in global Christian youth ministry, has allegedly disappeared into the sun-dappled landscapes of Greece after decades of calculated, abusive behaviour were revealed. The founder of Soul Survivor, a UK-based Christian charity, Pilavachi presided over an empire that shaped the spiritual lives of thousands. But behind the worship music and charismatic leadership lay years of manipulation, coercion, and abuse.
What truths were buried by shutting this down? Was the podcast poised to expose systemic failures, unchecked abuse, or complicity at the highest levels? The lack of transparency only fuels suspicion that what lies hidden is far more damaging than anything already revealed.
If cancel culture - or something like it - is what it takes to expose these injustices and demand change, then perhaps the Church should embrace it. Not as a tool of vengeance, but as a means of ensuring justice and safeguarding the vulnerable.
The silence of the Church in the face of abuse, the protection of predators over victims, and the failure of so many to step up is a disgrace that no apology can fix. This isn’t just about the past; it’s about the present and future. If the Church is to regain any shred of credibility, it must tear down the systems that have allowed these abuses to continue, and start anew.
This guide is a collection of my thoughts on the process of making amends, using the Soul Survivor scandal as a case study. The principles outlined here can be applied to any organisation, institution, or community seeking to make reparations after causing harm. True reconciliation involves a deep, methodical process of accountability, reflection, and restitution.
Andy Croft’s previous role as senior pastor at Soul Survivor Watford, where he resigned following allegations about his handling of serious complaints involving Mike Pilavachi, raises critical questions about his suitability for a senior leadership position.
If the Church is serious about healing and reform, it must reconsider decisions like this. Transparency, humility, and a genuine commitment to justice are the only paths forward. Anything less is a betrayal of those who suffered under its watch and a tragic failure to live up to its calling.
In churches, compliance is often misinterpreted as spiritual humility or loyalty to leadership. Members are taught to avoid questioning authority, fearing they may appear divisive or rebellious. But when compliance becomes the default posture, it creates an environment ripe for misuse of power.
The Church of England faces a critical juncture. Survivors are not asking for symbolic gestures but for substantive changes that address the culture of complicity and ensure protection for future generations. Whether the Church will rise to meet this challenge remains an open question.
If there’s one moment in the Gospels that cuts through the saccharine Sunday School version of Jesus, it’s the scene in the temple where he flips the tables. It’s raw. It’s righteous. It’s a furious response to the hypocrisy and exploitation he saw in the heart of the religious establishment. That moment isn’t just about rage—it’s about defending what matters. Truth. Justice. The vulnerable.
So what would Jesus think about the Soul Survivor scandal? Let’s not sugar-coat this. He’d be f*cking furious!
This isn’t just about a refund. It’s about recognising the damage Soul Survivor caused and the enduring impact on people like me. The £2,500 represents more than money - it symbolises what I was denied: support, clarity, and the chance to be myself without fear or shame. Yet Soul Survivor continues to shirk responsibility, as if their 2019 incorporation magically absolves them of past wrongdoing.
The Soul Survivor scandal is a tragic reminder of how far institutions can stray from their mission when power and image take precedence over integrity and care for the vulnerable. The evangelical community must confront this failure with honesty and courage, ensuring that this dark chapter becomes a catalyst for profound and lasting change.
What happened at Soul Survivor is more than a tragic oversight; it’s a betrayal of trust on a massive scale. Mike Pilavachi’s actions reveal the stark reality of unchecked power within religious institutions.
Soul Survivor and other institutions associated with Pilavachi have an opportunity to demonstrate real accountability. This moment demands more than words of regret - it requires action that prioritises the voices of the victims over the reputation of a former leader. Removing Pilavachi’s preaching from public platforms would be a step in the right direction.
For an organisation with Soul Survivor’s reach, the fallout should have been monumental, leading to fundamental changes in structure, leadership, and priorities. Yet, bafflingly, it feels as though Soul Survivor has treated this as little more than a speed bump on its journey.
The scandal at Soul Survivor isn’t just another unfortunate episode in a long line of church abuses - this is a profound and brutal failure of leadership, ethics, and basic human decency. It’s been weeks since Fiona Scolding QC’s report tore the lid off years of predatory abuse, neglect, and willful ignorance in the Soul Survivor organisation. And yet, the dust seems to be settling, far too quickly
This article seeks to explore the intersection of Pilavachi’s actions and the Church’s uneasy relationship with human sexuality, asking how repression and denial of natural desires might create environments ripe for abuse.
Soul Survivor and its Watford church should shut down once and for all. The revelations coming out of this “ministry” are beyond disturbing. This isn’t just a sad story about a few mistakes. It’s about systematic betrayal, power unchecked, and a church that manipulated its members while refusing to hold itself accountable.

Soul Survived
Soul Survived exposes the shocking abuse and manipulation at the heart of Soul Survivor, led by disgraced founder Mike Pilavachi. With voices from victims and calls for real reform, this book dives deep into the toxic culture, systemic failures, and the Church's inadequate response. It's a blistering wake-up call for accountability, justice, and change. Forget rebranding – it’s time for the Church to clean house. "Soul Survived" is the spark for the reckoning we desperately need.
It is imperative that both Mike Pilavachi and Soul Survivor take unequivocal steps to address the harm caused. Pilavachi must come out of hiding, confront the allegations, and engage directly with those he has wronged. Soul Survivor must move beyond perfunctory apologies and implement robust support systems for survivors, ensuring they are not left to “fend for themselves” in the aftermath.